some journaling...

6.21.04
Tonight I heard the craziest personal testimony in my life. Candice's life was really messed up. It was a powerful story about love, grace, and the forgiveness of God. What a blessing to hear her story! During her talk, I found myself asking (silently), 'can this really be true?!' I have never experienced that side of life and I don't want to. I also don't want to take God's love for granted...

I love this place. I find myself strangely open and talkative amongst the homeless people. At first I was not excited about being here, but God has flipped my attitude around 100%. I need more of this in my life. Praise God for this opportunity.

also tonight (and every night coming) I lead worship AND gave a Bible study. I'm not that crazy about it, but tonight I found it very refreshing. Also it was hot and during the worship, I was sweating like a pig.

6.22.04
tonight we heard from Carol. She was uneasy. But she's come a long way. The mission has done good work for the Lord. People are being helped, souls are being saved. Families are served. Awesome

you can't just put Jesus in your mouth, chew Him up while He tastes good, and then spit Him out. You must consume Him - somewhere in John 6

today one of the students called me 'crabby' even though I am usually 'cooler.' I need to check my attitude.

Grace is shy. I'll try to talk with her tomorrow.

6.23.04
Right now, I am going to kill the jr high boys. I've told them to shut-up several times. Sometimes jr highers make me not want to be involved in ministry. I can't let them get to me.

Anyways, i don't think my Bible study was very good tonight even though the topic was of utmost importance. God's love. I am not one of those passionate preachers, and sometimes I wish I were.

I still really like being here. Not with jr highers, but among the homeless. why?! do i really enjoy this kind of ministry, or do i feel righteous for helping 'the least of these.' hopefully i can sort out those feelings. until then, i'll continue serving. if my actions are loving, my attitude will soon follow...i hope.