blank out...

SOmetimes I just can't think of anything to write. My life feels pretty bland from day to day, even though there are exciting things going on. I guess that's why I haven't been good at writing in the journal more often. I'll try some tidbits.

I have a staff meeting today. Those are pretty easy going. Maybe and hour, or hour and a half at the most. Lunch is good, but last night a bunch of us went to buffalo wild wings and we all had one of their spiciest wings you can get. Oh man, one wing was plenty. Of course we ate that at the end of the meal, so we were already full. It was hot! Burned my mouth and lips for the next 15 minutes. I don't even remember what it tasted like - all I can remember is the mass amounts of coke that I drank after that, and the many times i had to keep whiping my nose. Anyways, it was hot and I think it upset my system a little, I haven't felt the greatest since then, so lunch doesn't sound real good today.

Yesterday, I was the only one in the office all day long. I got super bored. I'm glad that doesn't happen too much, otherwise, I wouldn't get anything done. Ministry seems to be much easier and better when you are working with other people. I guess I should always be thankful that others are around even if it gets annoying from time to time.

We had staff evaluations the other day, I think i did pretty good. I am not sure if I'll get a raise (I doubt it) but it is just nice to know that people feel good about me being on the team. I'll have to say that I was nervous and confident at the same time. I was confident because David is very good giving me positive feedback, but I was nervous because I don't spend a whole lot of time with the guys who were doing the evaluation. I guess I am a little intimidated by them. Well, it was all good anyways

I haven't mentioned this, but David and I are getting along a lot better now. Let me tell you my secret formula for ministry. It has really helped me here at HCC. In my mind, I changed my job from being the "associate student minister" to being a servant of David Mehrle and Ben Merlod. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!? I decided that my job isn't some title and tasks, but to be a servant. My ministry has grown and flourished ever since I decided to carry a servant's attitude. God has really been blessing me lately with my relationships at church, as well as my ministry. It is awesome. Ironically, I hear the words of Jesus echoing in the back of my head "if you want to be great, you must become a sevant" (those aren't his words exactly. Duh! That's a huge biblical theme, and I had missed it. I went after position, power, and my own person self satisfying agenda and I was running into problems all over the place. But I eventually just gave up on myself and began to serve and wow, what a difference, what a blessing. I'm glad that God has let me see the true nature of ministry.

Okay, the other day, Adam and I were playing poker in my apartment, and when we were done, I took all my chips and threw them at him (about two handfuls); it was great. Well then we just started throwing them all over the floor. What a cool decoration idea. We have since just left it there and it is funny to walk on; all the chips clink together. We are so cool.