a struggle among many

i have been noticing lately that there is not much good entertainment on the internet. What a shame! Unfortuantely homestar and and gang only appear new once a week, and I don't care much for the master chief saying the "f" word and calling everyone a cock bite. It seems like there isn't just a consistent website for me to visit and be fulfilled. So I find myself in my office just browsing for funny videos. I found a good site, even though I had seen most of their videos, they were funny to look at again. Well, they only had a few, so I ventured to another side that showed much raunchier videos. Ones that although had my curiosity, scared me away by their questionable content. There was a video of the Super Bowl half time show, and other such content. While I had been reading some of the descriptions of the videos (not all were bad) I realized that all of the ad banners were explicit pictures of porn. Some was nude women, some were for cartoon porn, just the kind of thing I don't want to be looking at (especially not at church).

Here's the issue. I don't want to look at that porn...it will have negative effects on my life. Yet there is something inside me (and in a lot of other people too) that makes me interested. WHY WHY WHY?! What the hell is so interesting about watching naked women perform sex with other women/men/objects. I don't understand what is attractive about that...all I know is that it is. The problem is that the internet is somewhat pluralistic (all roads lead to porn) or so it seems. Is that all there is to do on the web? You have to be more intentional about not getting porn on your computer than getting it on purpose. That's rediculous. Our culture is infested!!!! I guess my frustration comes in the form of my inability to be immune to it. Seriously, I don't have a problem not murdering people, but porn can be the kriptonite to many a strong supermen. Thankfully, I have been able to avoid it (for the most part) here at work (like I said, it is easy to stumble upon), and I don't even have the internet at home for that among other reasons.

A praise: God thank you for protecting me lately from this devil that is internet porn. You are helping me work out some of these problems.

A request: God although I can avoid it, I am still tempted by it. Help me to be strong. Help me to remember your strength and use it in this area. Help me gaurd my heart and mind.

Well, that's enought rambling for now...a super x-g/f of mine is sending me messages, so I suppose I'll she what she's up to.